Holy Weekend. Fact.

I'm not going to go into the whole weekend because I simply don't have the energy to describe the whole thing! Honestly... I have the best friends on the planet. I don't know what I did to deserve them, but whatever it is, I need to keep doing it. Pictures to follow, but Katie made me a kickass cake, Rachael SHOWED UP TO SURPRISE ME (video on facebook), and everyone came out (or flew in) to be with me. This weekend was literally epic. You people are everything I could possibly ask for.

I did have my first really emotional goodbye. Alex left, and while we really only see each other a couple times a year, it hit me that his next "trip home" won't involve me. I'll be SO far away. People promise to visit all the time, but rarely follow through. I know a select few that actually will (Alex included) but still. The reality of what I'm about to do, and what I'm giving up is really starting to set in. My whole world, and everything I know, is about to crumble. Breathe, Carrie... breeeaaaathe.

I have the best coworkers!!

I had a coworker suprise me with flowers from her garden today!! It was so so sweet. She totally made my morning. I also happen to know that my officemate is planning something for me that she won't give me details on. I'm so excited to find out, but not quite ready for my last day to be here.

Official Countdown: 15 days

Reality is Setting In...

Last night, I had the first of what I can only assume will be a few meltdowns before my departure.

I'm preparing for my moving sale on Saturday, and last night involved taking everything off my walls and taking down my many pictures. I walked around my apartment slowly plucking my life apart, piece by piece.

I was overcome with a wave of panic and doubt, in which I called my best friend wailing "OhmygodwhatamIdoingwhyamIdoingthis??" to which she simply replied, "Well... why ARE you doing this?" This obviously forced me to put on my big girl panties and think logically. I am going to pull myself out of this professional rut. I am going to do what I've dreamed of doing in the city where my industry is most fertile. I am trusting in blind faith.

It's hard to look at my content Santa Barbara life and watch it come undone. It's scary. I've definitely built myself a life in a happy little bubble and it probably seems crazy to walk away from it. But, at the advice of others, I am envisioning what it will be like to rehang all of my pictures on a brand new wall in Brooklyn.

Official countdown: 20 Days

Updates!

I clearly suck at remembering to Blog. I was never good about journals and diaries either. Oops.

My moving sale this weekend got rained out by rain that never came. Dammit. I really wanted to get some of this crap out of here, because it looks like my closets and drawers exploded. My mom is coming up this weekend to help with the moving sale and the woman could sell sand in the desert, so I'm really hoping I'm not left with much. She's also generously offered to have another yard sale for me after I leave to sell whatever is leftover from this one.

I sent my deposit for my room today!! I have never parted with money so merrily, let me tell you. I cannot WAIT to step off that plane!

Rachael is meeting me in the city!! Happy Birthday to ME! I arrive at 7 pm on Wednesday night and she arrives at 10 am Thursday morning. It's perfect and I get 3 days of wandering the city with her. I am so ridiculously excited... Hopefully I won't be an emotional basket case since she'll be there with me.

Ok, off to organize. I have SO much to sort through to sell this weekend. Plus, they're showing my apartment tomorrow, so I need to have it in presentable shape. Oy.

Official Countdown: 23 Days!